Itu Saje.

Happy day and Assalamualaikum.

baru dapat result spm. walaupun tak seindah yang diimpikan, tapi Alhamdullilah tu yang saya mampu. yang mampu saya lakukan sedaya upaya saya.

to be honest, ye. i was dissapointed.really do. and the first thing i'd do was smiling, and then i'd hold it, trying not to cry in the hall. but, my tears still drop, with someone.

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mak, ayah.
maaf kaklang tak mmpu nak bg apa yang mak dan ayah nak.tak mampu nk beri kegembiraan buat mak.tak mampu nk bagi mak rasa bangga dengan keputusan kaklang, tak mampu nk bg mak dan ayah peluk kaklang kuat-kuat.
mak, ayah.
kaklang tahu, kaklang dah hampakan mak dan ayah.

to abglong dan abgngah.
boleh simpan duit untuk kaklang, yang konon kononnya nak buat kenduri lepas result nanti.:(

to kakngah dan kakyong
thanks you girls, korang memang the best laaa. walaupun saya down sgt2 masa kakngah dan kakyong call, tapi dalam down tu, sempat jgak saya senyum dgr korang buat kelakar.thanks sgt.

to abgteh and abgchik,
my abangs, maaf la deh.setakat tu jahh hok mampu.abgteh, tahu abgteh nalim maso result kaklang.sorry again.
abgchik, yea, saya dah selamatkan duit awak. chik, takpo, insyaAllah, kaklang cari jgak jale bia mak dan ayah boleh bangga dengan kaklang. i'll take yr advices.

to kakak, apang, amin, ecah.
maaf la belako.
kakak, maaf kaklang buat kakak susah sebab kaklang. tak dop niat pon nak susahkan dan menyerabutkan kakak. kaklang pon tak sey gini.sorry sgt.
belajar la molep. jgn jadi supo kaklang.

apang,
please. buat baik2 nnti SPM. tolong, banggakan mak dan ayah and all our siblings.

amin dan ecah,
2 lagi hopes mak dan ayah.belaja molep-molep. ecah, 5A please, untuk UPSR nanti. ubatkan hati mak dan ayah.

conclusion, maaf sgt2 untuk semuanya. maaf, kaklang tak boleh nak bg apa yg semua nak. kaklang tahu, semua letak harapan ko kaklang, and i crushed it in a day.

takpe, life must go on. tapi still terdetik dalam hati, kalaulah macam tu, kalaulah macam ni. best kan dapat A bnyak-bnyak, nak isi application form pon senang je. tapi takpe, I know, Allah got much better plan for me. mungkin bukan sekarang, tapi esok, lusa. sape tahu?

kakyong cakap, mak cakap,
takpe,mungkin takde rezeki. mungkin tu rezeki dia.

ye, mungkin rezeki dia, walaupun kitaorg buat benda semuanya sama-sama, tapi mungkin rezeki dia. takpe. saya gembira, untuk dia.

-ada jgak dalam hati terdetik, "kalaulah dulu-dulu saya belajar betul betul". tiba-tiba plak teringat lagu tu,
" loni hatiku sesal kerna dulu tok ngaji"
boleh tak deletekan perkataan kalau tu dari kepala saya???-

Oh my dear HEART,
Just accept what GOD had decided on you. Allah had a better plan for you.

mak,
sorry sgt.kaklang tak boleh nak cakap kat mak depan-depan, kaklang cuma boleh tulis kat sini je, maafla kaklang tak pandai nak berkata-kata, tapi ni je yang mampu kaklang buat.

hari result, sesungguhnya saya tak boleh langsung tengok muka mak, sedih sangat.

ayah,
maaf.sebab degil.


"GRIEVE NOT,ALLAH IS WITH US"- AT-TAUBAH 40

"TURN TO ALLAH OH BELIEVERS,EVERYONE OF YOU. SO THAT YOU MAY BE SUCCESSFUL"- AN-NUR 31

As long as Allah by my side, I can do EVERYTHING!

Well, people!

Good day, people!

i'm in a such BIG dilemma, see my capitals? ohh my, what should do. i never been in this situation before, moreover, it's more about my daily stuff. I don't really sure, it's common in teens like me, in words, who was before, stick to that and now changing because of time. i don't really sure it does.

let's make it clear, okay, well, as you may know my background and stuff, i was studied in well known high school that loaded with people who wearing that "tudung labuh", "jubah" and all those stuffs.and all those stuff really make me think, since i was in high school. can i stick to what i'm wearing all day long just like i did before? can i hold my ears listening about other sharp words on teens like me wearing that ''old fashioned" style? can i ignore people call that would someday call me makcik because i'm wearing it? and, since tody i still thinking and kept wondering if i can really do that.

you know what, i really admire teens, mostly in early 20s ( do we call them TEENS?)wearing tudung labuh rather than choosing tudung ariani or tudung bawal or even selendang in their daily outfits.but, I can't. i don't even know why. i really wanted to wear that, but i don't know, i'm choosing ariani or tudung bawal more than tudung labuh. i'd tried shawl( not that short one!) and i felt okay with it. i'm still wearing tudung labuh, but on when i'm going to school, to be honest, when i'm in Johore, i felt very comfortable wearing tudung ariani with jeans because i thought that no one's that i know was here! i can't stand people looking at me up to toes, beause i'm wearing tudung ariani or tudung bawal when i'm in KB.in johore, no one really cares what i'm wearing!

tell you what, there was a day when i was shopping with my mum at KB in early Feb, i met a few juniors of mine, they saw me, and giving a look that i would still remember clearly till now when they saw me wearing a tudung ariani. is it a crime wearing it? i'm not wearing anything that look like something in plastic bags, not that tight cloth, not that fishing net tudung. i'm just wearing a long purple Tee(people call in busana muslimah) with jeans and it's obviously not tight at all and simple black ariani tudung.i'm asking again, is it a crime?

okay, I'm a prefect that should be perfect, but i'm believing in persistent. i was been taught since i was little, to be persistent in everything i do. yeah, people change, and should change to become better, but i don't want to be a person that wasn't me. i don't say that when i'm wearing tudung labuh wasn't my style or whatsoever, but i want a persistence. insyaAllah, i would wear it someday,and would stick to that.wearing tudung labuh wasn't a style but a responsible, a big dependant to people that shows the beauty of islam, i don't want to be the one who ruined it and to that point, i'm still upgrading myself to be the one that can be an example to others.And Alhamdullilah, i'm still wearing socks,an inner when i'm wearing tudung that a little bit "jarang", not that S Ariani and still cover my chest.

I believe,
" just wore anything, as long it obeys the syariah"

and people,
"please, put me in your shoes and don't give me that looks"

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Tell You No More

Tell You No More
By: irnasofia

i throw more pebbles,
and watch it drops,
the punt that i ride,
slowly follows the tarn,
i paddled strenuously,
but I'm a puny, a truism
walk in a straight line,
but sometimes i veer,
I'm an inane, an earnest
the voices roamed,
and I'm still here
paddled.

They tittered, and I'm giggled,
but in my laughs, i indisposed
they won't know, and never wanted to
I'd tried,
but then i budged.
In an audible language,
I stared,
room with empty air, but full of hopes,
my heart concealed and I'm withered,
she does,plays with my hair,
crooning and kiss my skin,
reluctantly I spoke and gave her,
my bogus looks,
and gave her a decent hold,
"I'm fine, don't you worry!"


sentimental value. :)